My broken heart

http://www.kmbc.com/news/27491931/detail.html

I don't know if this has made the news in your area yet, but it's been on KCTV 5 news for the past couple days. Yesterday I saw the news van in town. The only thing that is wrong in this article, is Lisa was 51, not 41. Saturday, my husbands cousin was involved in a triple murder suicide. Our cousin Misty, who was 37, and two other people, which we have known a long time, were shot and killed instantly by Misty's soon to be ex-husband. One of the other victims, Lisa, I have known since I was born. She has a daughter Kendall, that is 23 I believe and a grandson, Landon. Lisa was all that Kendall had. Now that poor girl is all alone. She was raised by just her mother, so now she has no family. I couldn't imagine being that young with a toddler and no one to help you when you need it. No one to even give you advice. We were close with Misty and John, (the man that took her life). He was a devoted husband and father. He never seemed like the type of person that would be capable of doing something like this. But, I have heard that it could happen to anyone. I just did not think it could happen to our family. This is something you see on TV, in bigger cities, not in our small community. There are just around one thousand people in Mercer county. We all know every one. The other victim, Waylon was married to my husbands cousin on the other side of his family (I told you, small town). He was only 33. Lisa and Waylon died protecting Misty. John shot Lisa and Waylon first. Misty ran inside and hid upstairs. He found her though. One more thing is that John and Misty's two year old daughter was there. Thankfully, he didn't touch her, but I can't imagine what she's going to go through when she is older. People are going to be talking about this for years to come. I am so upset because this could have been prevented. A few weeks ago, Misty got a temporary restraining order against John because he was stalking her and he rear-ended her vehicle. When she went back to get it re-newed, the judge told her he didn't believe John was a threat to her. What a crock. Saturday morning, before it happened, John had driven by our house and waved great big and smiled at Chad, my husband. Chad now thinks he was gloating. What John did was planned. Right before the killings, he stopped at the bar here and had a beer. After he downed it, he slammed it down on the table and said "Well, I'm on a mission". I am physically sick over this. Her visitation is tonight and her funeral is tomorrow. I do not handle funeral's very well to begin with, so I hope I get through it without throwing up or passing out. My husband is a pall-bearer, so he won't be there to catch me. I'm tough, and we'll get through this. After our cousin Amanda's accident six weeks ago, I think our family has had enough heart ache. My shoulders are only so strong. Enough already.
I know this probably doesn't meet the word requirement, but, that's all I have right now.